A child's mindless rattle

A tooth-less rattle

Friday, December 23, 2005
10:36 PM

Just when I thought I found stability, someone decided to pull the rug beneath my feet. Gaining enlightment from people I least expected. I'm thankful for what I have, because with it I'm already more fortunate than most.

Go on, try as you might, as long as mom and pearl are here by my side, nothing's going to bring me down.

Don't ask me how I ended up this optimistic. I think it must be the hug Pearl gave me this afternoon. Even if the world thinks I'm the most horrible person alive, at least there's someone who thinks I'm slightly charming no matter what happens. -beams-

I wonder what she sees in me though.

Christmas eve tomorrow. Feeling a little helpless because I have the tendancy to screw up on big occassions like that.

Hey you, the nurse, the chemist-business woman, the a-level student, the cool-bung, and.. the fashion designer.. I miss you. It's been a long time since we met, esp you, the fashion designer. I hope all is going well for everyone. 2nd christmas we're not spending together. It sure feels weird.

Years ago, I'm always happy during Christmas. This year, for some reasons, I'm really not looking forward to it. Maybe it is a reminder that the year is coming to an end. -shrugs- Christmas, a season of joy and giving - Not just tangible cards or gifts, but also in a form of kind words and tender loving care.

When was the last time you said something sweet to someone? When was the last time you let someone know they're loved?

It's going to be a gloomy christmas without them. Sigh. I miss them already.

The End!